Resilience in the Time of Coronavirus: Part 2
Updated: Apr 22
I want to be blatantly honest.
Today I woke up and proceeded to have a full-on panic attack.
I have so much support but for the life of me didn’t know where to start or who to call in that moment, so I focused on my body, took a shower and really felt the water hit my skin until it had passed and I had regained my usual positivity. Thus far, in this experience, I’ve felt the tension building, the fear all around me setting in, and I’ve been able to find the calm. I’ve also seen the effects of the spread of COVID-19 as an opportunity for the world to rest, for us to grow personally and really stretch out some important skills like resourcefulness and creativity. Today, however, it hit me, here I am in Santa Barbara and it’s just me. I’ve built an amazing community here and I’m in no way disparaging that, but at the heart of it, it’s just me here and if I needed to, I could leave at any time. This morning, that’s what hit me – that there might be restrictions put on our communities (I know they already have in cities like San Francisco) that would prevent me from being with my family for crucial moments with me left here to just watch tv alone in my room.
I know we all are sharing in some level of fear right now. There are communities that are far more entrenched in this situation than mine, loved ones finding themselves in exactly that position and that it is to protect what we love that we're staying home. My fears are not unique and I'm not trying to remind you or scare you.
I’m telling you because I want you to know that when those moments of fear come, they also pass, and they happen to all of us. It doesn’t matter how trained we are in mindfulness or trauma or how cynical we are. Our way of life feels threatened and what we love become our main focus and worry. This is when we need resilience most.
Today opening myself up and making this post is my resilience practice. I’m using it as a way to take control over my fears and connect with my community – you. I urge you to make a similar battle plan – a commitment to reach out when you have a fear and a person you choose to be your witness in that moment. If it’s hard to think of someone (or even if you just want to share with me), I offer myself up as a witness and a listener to your fears and needs.
Stay safe everybody and spread love.